remember me as a time of day

Hi. I love this:

(Edit: my mom emailed me this morning thinking that I was on the verge of throwing myself off a cliff or drowning myself in the new found rivers in my neighborhood due to the flooding, however I am not. It’s just something from my all time favorite show and it makes you think! So hi mom! and dad! and shane too! and most likely general tsao. and everyone else who reads this. I am alive & happy! & in love!)

Take a look at yourself in the mirror- who do you see looking back? Is it the person you want to be? Or is there someone else you were meant to be, the person you were meant to be but fell short of? Is someone telling you that you can’t or won’t? Because you can. Believe that love is out there, believe that dreams come true every day because they do. Sometimes happiness doesn’t come from money, or fame, or power, sometimes happiness comes from good friends and family, and the quiet nobility of leading a good life, believe in dreams that come true everyday because they do. So take a look in that mirror and remind yourself to be happy because you deserve to be- believe that. and believe that dreams come true everyday. Because they do.

Hansel said to Gretel, “Let us drop these breadcrumbs so that together we find our way home because losing our way would be the most cruel of things.” This year, I lost my way. And losing your way on a journey is unfortunate, but losing your reason for the journey is a fate more cruel. The journey lasted eight months. Sometimes I traveled alone; sometimes there were others who took the wheel. And took my heart. But when the destination was reached, it wasn’t me who arrived. It wasn’t me at all. And once you lose yourself, you have two choices: find the person you used to be or lose that person completely. Because sometimes you have to step outside the person you’ve been and remember the person you were meant to be. The person you wanted to be. The person you are.

Change comes like a little wind that ruffles the curtains at dawn, and it comes like the stealthy perfume of wildflowers hidden in the grass. Time takes it all, whether you want it to or not. Time takes it all, time bears it away.. and in the end.. there is only darkness. Sometimes we find others in that darkness, and sometime we lose them there again.